God, my life is sooo complicated. I had to eventually end it with someone and it was really difficult. He's not been taking it too well and it's completely understandable. We were great one minute and then I had a brain freeze, as I usually do, and just didn't want it anymore. I seem to go through phases where I'm really intense and passionate about something and then it just stops. I have no idea what it is, maybe I'm just totally weird?

Anyway, I ended up going out with a girl the other weekend and it seemed to go down the route of...well, what can I say.....?? Ok, I ended up staying the night with her and, although I don't regret it, I probably shouldn't have.

I'm getting myself into situations at the moment that I shouldn't. I have someone texting me on a regular basis who wants something from me - or with me - and the situation that surrounds it isn't right. I can't really go into it but all I can say is it's too close to home. WHY DO I DO THIS??

If I was to reflect on everything that has happened in the past 18 months I would probably end up on sedatives. I'm the type of person who's only happy when it rains and seem to get a kick out of fucking people up in the process.

And I wonder why I get called "ICE MAIDEN"....