I've not been as strict as last week as far as my diet is concerned. Guaranteed I've put on weight instead of losing it. I was at an exercise class this morning, it wasn't too strenuous but I'll be sore tomorrow all the same. Good thing is my gym membership starts back up tomorrow so I can attempt to get in some shape. Just have to find some motivation now...now where did I put it...?

Had a death in the family yesterday. It's horrible because there are a lot of circumstances which make it complicated and horrible. I always said life is too short to hold grudges and you end up regretting things when it's too late. I suppose some people don't listen though and you have to take and step back and let them get on with it.

I'm off on annual leave as of tonight for a few days which is well needed. My friend is coming to see me, I don't get to see her much as she lives nearly 200 miles away from me. It's sad really because I grew up with her, we went to nursery together and then all through school. I suppose people have to move on though. Change can be a good thing but at the same time it's upsetting.

Anyhoo, got shopping to do (not the fun kind) so I better get off my ass and get moving.

Wahey! I lost roughly 5/6lbs! All that fruit was not eaten in vain. I'll be lucky if I lose anything this week though because the weight loss slows down after the first week. I'm going to go to an exercise class with Claire on Friday though and my gym membership starts back up again on Saturday. Lets hope that does the trick.

Everyone was so nasty to me last night at work. They brought in jaffa cakes and a big cake. I was so tempted to have a bit but I managed to refrain. Lets see whats in store for tonight...

Oh and Claire, if you're reading this, "who ate all the pies?!"

Hey ho! God, it's only something like 13 weeks til Christmas. That's bloody scary. I think I may have to cancel it this year as I have absolutely no money and can'tr be bothered with the stress that goes with it! I've got so many birthdays coming up too, something like 10 before christmas. Bet I've missed someone out?

Anyhoo, not much been happening. My computer hasn't been working so that will explain why I haven't written anything for a bit. I'm on a diet just now and it's bloody killing me. I was at my mate's house last Sunday and we stupidly decided to weigh ourselves. I'm 10 stone and Claire is 11 stone - we equal out at about the same though because she has nearly 3 inches on me. Still, what a nightmare. I've been on a kind of smoothie/fruit diet and Claire has been doing her exercise class. Mind you, I called her the other night and she was eating pie and chips?! Guaranteed she loses weight anyway which is a bit of a bastard because we're competing against each other. The first one to lose 2 stone gets a beauty treatment of their choice courtesy of the other one. I don't take losing well...

I am so pissed off today. Have you ever felt like just stopping everything and taking time out. I feel like that today.

There seems to be so much going on at the moment and I'm getting close to boiling point. Need to get a new fire place because my one has just been condemned. Its blowing out carbon monoxide. Well, I just got a quote for a new one and it's going to cost nearly 6000 quid. Ha ha, no chance.

I've also got to re-home my cats because of problems with my asthma. I've been in hospital so many times this year due to not being able to breathe, although I'm not convinced it has anything to do with the cats. I have 3 of them and it's going to break my heart giving them away. I personally think it's got a lot to do with smoking. I've not had one since saturday and it couldn't be further from my mind. I can't breathe even thinking about smoking.

Back to work today after the weekend. Even more stress. Still haven't got any of the shit that was going on cleared up because my boss obviously doesn't know how to do his job properly. Shame that.

Anyhoo, I better go do something.

See ya.

Well, it's taken me a while to recover after my last heavy duty note. Think I'm going to have to stop being so deep (see, not so much of an ice maiden after all).

I've been out going out quite a lot recently to drown my sorrows so to speak. Na, not really to drown my sorrows, just because I can't stand staying in. The only problem with me drinking is that I end up doing or saying stupid things...mind you, I do that when I'm sober so I aint got an excuse.

I've been really stressed out lately. My work is driving me up the wall, it's full of wankers and jobsworths. I work in a relatively small team for the size of the organisation (Emergency Services) but there is absolutely no teamwork at all. It's all politics and backstabbers. There are certain people who have a supervisory roll and will do everything they can to stamp their authority on anyone lower than them. I'm developed a knack of visualisation to keep a smile on my face. Most of it consists of picturing them all in a nasty way. Won't go into detail or I'll end up in a padded cell! Anyway, why am I wasting my time writing about work when I could be warbling on about something else??

Hey, I've bought 2 pairs of shoes in the last week. That's good for me. No, actually, that's bad. Need my shoe fix so I better get out at the weekend and have some shoe therapy.

I'm getting moaned at for being on the computer so long, other half wants to use it for ork related stuff so I better get off and count my shoes or something.

Bye bye.